Saturday, March 29, 2014

Real Fast! Donation For Model HOrses Anonymous

Donation for Model Horses Anonymous 2014.  This is the bridle that I complained about due to the difficulty of the black knots...  I would only make black knots again for two reasons:  A. Vast sums of money or B. an exceptionally special occasion.

Thursday, March 27, 2014


Every sunday, and just about every other day afterwards, I think of blog topics. Every. Sunday.  And lately I've rarely actually sat down and written anything.

All I can think of is complaining.  Complaining about my health, complaining about how busy I am, complaining about how complicated life has become and complaining about how I'm not an artist full time.

All I can think of to type is negative.  Occasionally I want to type a how to, or describe the difference between using light thread and dark thread in miniature knots.

So this in this blog post I'm going to start on one of my topics and then I'm going to barrel forward and just type.  If I offend you or if you feel I go too negative, my apologies in advance.  This is just how I feel.

My health has been awful.  It's never been great but lately it's been off the charts and uncontrollable.  I've hit perimenopause and I'm miserable.  It's like PMS 24/7 with some added hot flashes thrown in to really make me feel nuttier than usual.  I'm starving all of the time, I'm angry one minute and want to cry the next. I can't focus some days to save my life.  Some days I'm so exhausted that I have to fight falling asleep in my studio chair or at my desk at work.  Taking some kind of hormones is out of the question for me because they give me fog brain.  I can't have fog brain. I refuse.  I have far too much to

All the DRs say is that this is all "normal".  My hormone levels are "normal".  My bloodwork is all "normal".  Let me tell you, these days, I don't feel "normal".

Today I woke up with an awful migraine but I'm feeling a little better now.

I haven't been in the studio very often. I really miss it.  My focus is so gone that I sometimes get into the middle of making a knot, and then I get distracted and then I forget where I was in the knot.

I haven't touched my western pleasure saddle in over a month, I've forgotten the ideas I had on how to finish the shoulders.

I am making progress on the bridle donation for Model Horses Anonymous.  This particular bridle, has reins that are black with Black knots.  This may seem like "no big deal" but let me tell you, the darker the thread, the harder the knot.  With white or light thread it is very easy to see where the crosses and strands of the knot are, and therefore very easy (for me) to interweave.  When you're working on a knot that is black thread, against a black rein it is exceptionally difficult for your eyes to differentiate between strands and places where to run the interweave.  I haven't destroyed and restarted so many knots since I first started making knots!  But I think it's turning out great.  I feel like the hard work is entirely worth it.  I don't have any really "Good" photos of it but here are a couple of photos from my phone:

I broke my "Good" lens last fall after I dropped it so I am sending off to be repaired.  When that comes back I will be going to the Kentucky Horse Park to get photos of my favorite Akhal teke, Magnatli. :)

Monday, March 03, 2014

Another Quick update

I'm still here.. I'm still working slowly in the studio.  I've been really really tired and my concentration is almost non-existant.  I work a lot and I sleep a lot.  My surgery was successful in that there was no complications but I do not feel better.  My dr mentioned it would take a few months for my body to re-adjust. I hope thats true because I'm really sick of all of the hormonal weirdness.  I'm just not myself.

We have now finished our basement and I have a new studio room down there.  The room is about half of the size of my current studio and I have no idea how I'm going to cram all of my horses and all of my supplies in the smaller room.  I forsee a cluttered disaster ahead.. lol

Anyway, I haven't forgotten anyone, or any orders nor have I disappeared. I'm just hibernating I guess.. :)